It’s been eons since my last post..
Living in Singapore was truly a dream come true. The country, as such, is such a beautiful yet disciplined place where the thought of going for a walk at 12 am was a possibility without overthinking about safety. Truly a place I am going to miss after I move..
However,like ants on rice, so many events took place that I dont even know where to start! The most important and best event that happened to me is motherhood :).
I look into his cute little eyes and I thank God for handing over this tiny human to me to call as my own. Never did I think I would be ready.. Never did I realize the privilege of being his mother.. So many decisions were made over the course of 2 years that I never thought would come to fruition so soon.
Of course if I had known about the labour pain beforehand, I don’t think he would have existed. Ever. It truly was a traumatic experience. But, the end result was worth the pain and suffering. To hold him and to call him my own is an honour that can never be taken for granted.
This is for you, Vihaan..
The moment I laid eyes on you, i was mesmerized by your tiny size. Despite being scared out of my mind, lying on the operation table with my guts outside, the only thought that ran through my head was your safety and well being.. pale and pink, I kissed your face and touched your head promising myself that I’ll be there for every step you take in your life. For every mistake, I hope to catch you. For every joy, I hope to experience it alongside. For every disappointment, I hope to help you overcome. Mainly, I hope for your good health amongst them all.
It’s scary. The power you hold over my head. Every tiny wail I come running to check. Every smile you bestow upon me, etches you deeper within my heart (if it’s even possible :O ). Your 5 inch hand has me running in circles around you.. that’s how much you mean to me, my tiny boy…
Love you to the moon and back.
By : Swathitha Vasudev